Finally, He has granted my WISH.....

This morning around 9.00 a.m. (15 Nov 2011) I went to the O&G clinic because I got an appointment with the specialist. Due to my lateness, I was the 4th last person being inspected. Mama accompanied me, but I asked her to go back first as it was filled with mothers, ready to meet the doctors.

It was quite overwhelming as I did not assume to be among the last mothers to be checked. So, about 2 1/2 hours spent just to wait for my turn. It is a waste of time. When the time comes to meet the specialist, it was almost 12 noon, and I did get a few suggestions and reasons why was I bleeding for the third time... an unfamiliar-not-knowing-its-name had caused me bleeding this time. So, it was quite unprofessional as I cannot see the full report of my blood-specimen taken and other reasons written. The most joyful moment was when the female doctor who had scanned my tummy confirmed that my baby is a BOY! Again, Allah had granted my wish to have the eldest child-to-be, a baby boy. He will be my backbone while my hubby was away. I will feel more strong then. I just knew it. While waiting patiently, I saw that girl beside my bed at the maternity ward again. She was okay, looking healthy. Thanks to Allah. Had a few words with her and exchanging phone numbers. I will never forget the experience staying 24 hours at Wad Melor Bersalin 3....

Last two days before end of school for this year was a hectic for a mama like me, not just my condition that does not allow me to work on things faster, it simply because suddenly there's too many things to be done at a time. Thanks to Allah again for sending me a few lil' angels to help out. My students, Form 3 students. Not forgetting my little sister, Adik for helping me on 2 Amal's marks. It means a lot to me.

Shopping with my hubby.....

Today is quite a happy moment for me not because I took a day off from school - escapism....(hehehe) but also manage to get what I desired for from my husband... He promised me to go shopping since last 2 weeks. So, here it goes, I manage to get 2 maternity dress for work, a mattress from pure 100 % cotton-made, an ultrasound scan for the baby.... but like before, we didn't get the actual sex yet....perhaps, next month.

We also went to the 'Klinik Desa' nearby my mommy's house to inform them I will come next month to repeat scan to see my baby's condition. It is a must, but what puzzled me is that the nurse seemed to have some kind of misunderstanding regarding my explanation on why I wanted to do the scan over here...not back at Sik. She doesn't seem to understand that I just wanted to do the scan thing... it was quite difficult talking to a person who seemed very consciously over her self-thought.   

It was totally tired, both for me and my hubby... right after reaching my mom's house, he instantly dozed off..... poor hubby, maybe he was tired due to the warm weather today as it usually rain on the evening... So, he might get tired easily.... plus, he'll have to drive tonight to get back to his 'maktab'.....once again, I will be left alone. 

My baby Boy, the teenage kitten had gone missing, and it's been day-6 since he went off. It was a tragedy for me, as I can't really accept the fact that my Boy will not be around with me anymore. No more rice with fish, no more playing, no more sleeping next to my tummy.... I missed my Boy so much, sometimes I get too emotional and often cried over this misery. The lost make my emotion unbalanced. I even had a hard goodnight sleep because of not able to sense my Boy craving for me to play with him or patted him in the midnight nor morning.

My hubby did not know what to do. I even talked to my neighbours and asked for her help but it gave her such an awkward look at me, because maybe to her, a lost kitten brings no important matter, as I really took this issue seriously. I loved my kitten. I raised him since he was a baby. Who doesn't feel anything when it goes missing really doesn't have a heart. But now, it is almost a week, I had to move on so it would not affect my baby too much, I'm so sorry dear. Mama really loves Boy. I was planning to raise his 'sister' at school where now it's with her mommy cat, Comel I named it. So that I won't feel so lost. Two of the male siblings had been taken and now, only her left. But hubby told me not to separate the kitten with its mom yet because she really needs to be breastfeed. I'll follow his advice. But got to tell my cleaner friend that I will take this kitten as mine. Kind of promised her that I will gave her the kitten..... dear Allah, I wish You bring my Boy back to me again so that we can be united. May Boy be safe and healthy, wherever he is now.... 

 

What's It Like To Feel When He/She's Already 6 Months in My Belly.... :)

My Baby Boo....

Today was quite hectic for me as my lovely kitten, Boy had awaken earlier than usual and he normally woke me up right after that. It was 5 a.m. and I still feel like wanting to continue my sleep. But he kept calling me....poor guy, he must wanted to eat his favourite dish, rice with fish. So, patiently, I cooked the leftover for him and went to pray, solat sunat prayers. Then I fed him the rice. He ate them all, boy that must been a relief to him, able to eat rice 5.30 a.m. in the early morning.

My baby was still comfortably sleeping (I guess so) when I woke up. But last night, he/she was actively moving and sometimes it kind of discomfort to me. I don't know what other women felt during their trimester but my pelvic is getting hurt from time to time.... But it didn't bother my routine so much. Plus, I got to be strong I'm living apart from my beloved husband. He's not always around with me....


The reason I didn't acknowledge my baby's sex is because me and my hubby, we didn't know yet the sex....whether it's a male or female. But as my hubby said, it doesn't matter what's the sex, just make sure I'm as fit as a super mom and my baby is healthy, that would be much more than a relief to him. He's right.....

He/She's about this big now...

 

To My Surprised.....

I never thought having a hunch to buy 1 more pregnancy test kit will gave me such a huge news in our life- me and my husband. Definitely the infant is his!!! How life always brings you a big surprise, you never going to know....

I rang him a call right after I did the test yesterday morning, when he was busy talking to one of his officer, and the news had gave him a short, "Huh?" for the early few second.... it was funny, because I had to mentioned him twice... Yes, he's going to be daddy....future daddy.....our marriage is 5 months and 26 days old. I felt so fortunate because we only had to wait for 5 months to become a parent.

OMG... I am going to be a mommy! People said I should recite suratul-Yusuf for him/her to be beautiful/handsome and easier for me to deliver a baby, suratul-Maryam....maybe I should do both!

Ya Allah, The Almighty, I realized that you heard my prayers for these few months, and it really give me a heart-thrill to know that now, I am going to be a mother. May You stray away all the bad things from coming towards my baby, myself and my beloved families, May You give us the strongest child, the most wise child, the most perfect child, who understands his/her beloved mommy/daddy's hardship, an obey son/daughter, who will never find other sounds than the reciting of your 'kalimah'...Allahuakhbar! Allah The Almighty. From You we seek for help, and To You we ask for forgiveness, do forgive my sins, the light or heaviest one, and may my husband come back to my side safe and sound each time he travel back from any direction on this dusty earth of Yours....

Dear Our Creator,
Once again You granted  my latest wish... I could never be thankful enough than repeatedly say Alhamdulillah, I am going to be a mother. But keep reminding myself, it is like half-dreaming. But you know, I captured the image of the result, the pregnancy test straw level. I really thought it is going to be negative, but it turned out to be positive! Oh, Allah, the Most Hearing, the Judge for Judgement Day, please grant my other wish that this loyal son/daughter is going to be the most humble servant to you, fear of Your punishments, and will be faithful to Your Path. I need him/her to always ready to become a mujahhid, just like his/her parent...

Let us nurture this biggest 'gift' that You gave to me to become one of Your humble servant that You could proud of... May You grant my wish, for now and then... amin......